When you know that you are following God’s will to the best of your ability and obeying what he has called you to do, it frees you from needless worries, doubt, and envy toward others.  But this can only happen if you are walking with the Spirit and carefully listening to his direction.  I hope that you all can experience that kind of freedom because there is nothing on earth like it.  If you do not have that confidence, maybe your prayers should reflect that.  Pray that God would show you how to live in the center of his will.